Emerging
I’ve been in a dark place
And I never want to go there again
All the while pretending to be fine
I was dying on the inside
I should have known better than this
Weaker and weaker
Yet I had to be strong
Until I could bear it no more
I had to reach out
Find some hope,
Find some answers
Take time to replenish
My body, my soul
I feel ashamed that it took me so long
To reach out
To learn how to keep myself healthy
I was hiding
Hoping things would get better with time
But it was the opposite
Slowly but surely I was sinking
Despite my efforts to reverse things
Nothing seemed to help
I felt like giving up
Sinking back down
I was almost too weak to go on
But now I have found
Strength is found in many forms
The strength to ask for help
To seek answers
Even when I don’t know what is wrong
The strength to realise I need to do something
The courage to do it
To be vulnerable
To keep trying, to seek and find
And what I found was surprising
Strength is found in many places
Strength for my body
Strength of mind
Comes from knowing that I’m not alone
My struggles are shared
I no longer walk alone, hidden behind fear and misconceptions
Starting to feel that peace
That I haven’t felt for so long
Starting to enjoy normal things again