A prayer for change

I want something to change

I need something to change

I need to change

I need you to change me

Here I am

In the midst of the mess

Although my life is a mess

And I am a mess

Here I am

I long to be, just be in your presence

Abide with me,

Speak to me

Change me

Let me see myself through your eyes

Let me see the truth

Let me know the truth

Let me feel the truth

Let me know you

Giver of life

O Lord,

My Soul is restless,

My heart is aching

For comfort, healing, connection

I cannot walk alone anymore

I long to be able to say

“It is well with my soul”

My faith is withering, useless alone

I need to learn again to trust

I need to find a place of belonging

Safety for my soul

A place of peace,

True rest

I have seen

I have tasted

The sweetness of your unconditional love

Yet have I forgotten?

Do I no longer believe?

I know my sins are forgiven

Yet I long for deep healing

And to find my place in your family

I long to worship you with all my heart…yet

I am suffocating, drowning

Indeed I feel as if my soul is dying

I need to be reminded of the truth

I need to know it in my heart

I’m willing to do whatever it takes

To get out of here

To be free