Darkness unknown

Sometimes I feel like this. When I’m carrying something heavy and I’m not sure that anyone would understand. Sometimes I feel like this. Tell me you’ve felt it too.

I walk into the room

No one seems to notice

Maybe I don’t belong here

I feel invisible

Surrounded yet alone

I want someone to acknowledge me

Yet I avoid making eye contact with anyone

Lest my truth be seen

I want to tell someone how it is with me

But I don’t feel that my misery is welcome here

I don’t even want it-

So why would anyone else want to hear it?

If I act like it’s not real, will it leave?

No, not before it is acknowledged.

I feel like screaming for help

But all that comes out is a strangled whisper

I don’t think anyone can hear me

And nothing they say seems to help

Maybe I need to stop asking

Fight my battle alone

Surely I cannot expect anyone

To fight for me,

Carry my burden,

Have the answers I need?

Panic taking hold again

I cannot just brush it all aside

And smile and talk pleasantries

When I feel so heavy

So dark inside

I’m too afraid to let the darkness show

Lest I be truly known

Lest I be seen as a traitor

I’ve lost my light

I cannot see clearly

I feel so alone

But the only way to find my light again

Is to let my darkness be known