Before&Laughter

My Own Vision

I enrolled for Uni yesterday. It’s a massive shift for me. A change that feels very overdue. Still, I’m surprised that I suddenly feel differently about so many things.

For perhaps the first time in my life

I see my own vision

And I believe it

It was there all along- but I see more clearly now

I see my own hopes and dreams at last

No longer obscured by doubt

Or overwhelming responsibility

I know what I want

I know where I want to go

And I have a plan to get there

No longer content

With just surviving

Or spending all my time

Meeting other people’s needs

Serving other people’s visions

The breaking away is painful

Some may see it as betrayal

Those who didn’t really know me

May wonder who I’ve become

No longer available

To always do what everyone else wants

I have a choice

And I’m going to make it

To find my own way

To make the world a better place

I don’t know what to do with this newfound strength

It seems too much like arrogance

I thought it was forbidden

To have my own vision, and to own it

All these years I’ve tried to hide it

Told myself it doesn’t matter

Just to survive

Now that I know what I want

I am surprised by the fierceness

With which I want to pursue it

I won’t let anything stop me now