Longing to be comforted
I came here to pray
And it’s back
What is this feeling?
What does it mean?
The best I can describe it is
Gripping heart pain
A deep unfulfilled longing to be comforted
For what?
I do not know
What am I grieving now?
Am I in need again?
In need of what? -comforting?
For comfort’s sake?
Is there some unidentified brokenness?
Is it my regret that speaks?
Or is this just the groaning
For things that are not as they should be-
The longing for all to be made new?
Is it my inner child who speaks?
Am I feeling the compassion needed for my younger self?
Am I grieving lost opportunities?
Is it the need for more belonging and connection here and now?
Whatever it is-
It fights to be acknowledged
And released
Or comforted?
Whatever it is
I feel more determined to be honest
Show up,
Live life fully
Connect more
Let not my joy be stolen anymore